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As beatas são sinais do futuro que está para vir... As palavras que dizem são marcas do passado (mal vivido?) que transpiraram para a pele. O tempo que não tenho, e as teclas pretas do piano serão o meu (teu? nosso?) futuro. Quero um pouco de álcool um pouco de esquecimento, sabedoria, para poder suportar a ignorância do que me rodeia.

Gosto de vocês, mas não consigo viver assim, sinto-me só. Sei que ao falar não estou a comunicar com ninguém, não tenho opções na vida. As opções resumem-se a isto: trabalhar para ganhar dinheiro para gastar para ter onde gastar dinheiro para ser feliz para foder para não pensar para não me matar.

Quero uma porta. Um caminho um saída. Está tudo fechado, tudo acabado, tudo perdido. Aos 31 anos, não tenho esperança. Não tenho nada para ou porque viver. Só beatas num cinzeiro e uma casa vazia. Não há paixões por muito grandes que sejam que me preencham a alma, não há mulheres por muito profundas que sejam que façam sentir. Quero a porta, a janela, o buraco, o espelho para ir para outro lado, o outro lado.

Um dia vou ser a Alice, fugir daqui para um mundo de cogumelos mágicos e gatos sorridentes. Por enquanto, sorriu quando devo e falo quando não devo fazendo rir com as minhas tonterias.

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No me gusta que escribas esas cosas,porque tienes un pasado de valor y coraje,tienes sabiduria y de paso tambien bastante álcool en tu despensa(no es para todos),te queremos como eres,tienes 31 años y estas hecho un toro de preferencia(osborne),mucho por lo que VIVIR y NADA por lo que desistiry porfavor no te conviertas en alicia que te quiero como eres.Un beso grande tesoro.

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bom, mau... já tivemos a escrever melhor não? que raio de conversa é esta? Sempre te considerei uma pessoa minimamente inteligente e as pessoas minimamente inteligentes não têm conversas destas. E depois, onde vou jantar assim de repente sem termos combinado nada? E com quem disparatar? Lembra-te que todos gostamos muito de ti e não precisas de ter ninguém ao teu lado já a correr para seres um ser singular, um Homem. És o Carlitos, não o carlitos e a.... Tens tempo de encontrar a pessoa certa para ti e vais encontrà-la com certeza, dá tempo ao tempo e relaxa, goza a vida ou tenta gozá-la o melhor que puderes e conseguires. Estamos cá todos para te ajudar a fazer isso, ahaha. Beijinhos grandes de quem adora chaterar-te.

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olá amiguito. Que raio de estado de espírito é esse carlinhos?Não te estou a perceber. Realmente quando as pessoas estão em baixo têm tendência para só ver as coisas más da vida. Pois eu como tu amiga relembro-te as coisas boas. Quem dera a muita gente ter o trabalho que tu tens e a remuneração que tens, quem dera a muita gente ter os amigos que tu tens e que se preocupam ctg, quem dera a muita gente ter uma casa e toda mobilada,etc,etc,etc. Por isso carlitos tens que ver que tens muitas coisas boas e positivas na vida e é a elas que te tens que te agarrar. E não te esqueças que quando menos esperares e menos procurares, te irá aparecer a MULHER , a tua cara metade. Enquanto isso não acontece espalha o amor que tens pelos teus amigos e procura partilhar os teus bons momentos com eles e criar alguns com eles também. E quando estiveres em baixo em vez de te isolares liga aos teus amigos que te vão colocar na mó de cima com certeza. Desta tua amiga que te adora e que tem muitas saudades tuas :Sónia

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